I've Been Possessed, But What If I Get Pregnant First? - C115
#115
It was the first time my hyung directly brought up that incident. No, I hadn’t wanted to hear about it before, so I avoided looking at him. It was too painful, too regretful… too guilt-ridden.
But now I couldn’t turn away. I was prepared to listen to whatever he had to say. Even if he blamed me… I would listen to it all, and still not leave him.
Because that’s what I had decided.
I quietly waited for his words.
“That incident wasn’t your fault.”
I looked up at him, surprised by the unexpected words. My hyung gently stroked my cheek after lightly brushing his trembling lips.
“It was just an accident. I’m sorry I realized that too late.”
“…But… it’s true that our parents died because of our parents, isn’t it?”
Thoughts I had tried hard to push away stirred in my mind, and tears welled up again. Even though my hyung said it wasn’t anyone’s fault, that it was just an accident, my heart ached thinking of him losing his beloved mother at such a young age. I felt so guilty thinking of Father living alone in that lonely house for so many years.
“You suffered too, didn’t you?”
“……”
“You were in pain too.”
“Hu, huu….”
Finally, unstoppable tears burst forth. Thinking back on my childhood, it seems there were many difficult moments. I was often bullied for not having parents and cried a lot missing the empty place of my parents.
“You were very lonely too, weren’t you?”
“Hic… huuu……”
The first one to fill that loneliness was my hyung. He offered me comfort, embraced me with love, and gave me warm solace. I hugged him at his gentle comfort that breathed life into my heart that had been dead with guilt.
“Now let’s just love each other.”
“……”
“Love me.”
Could I really do that, as my hyung said? Could I be selfish and only think of myself? Even though I had already decided to stay by his hyung’s side, I couldn’t feel at ease due to the constant guilt and selfishness.
“For my sake.”
I stiffened at those words, as if he had read my mind. My hyung wiped away my unceasing tears.
“For our sake, let’s let go of that incident.”
I couldn’t bear it anymore. My hyung loved me and loved me again. I had no confidence in not loving this man anymore.
I stuttered for a moment before finally speaking.
“Really… can I really do that…? Hic, can I really, hyung…?”
“Yes. You can. You can choose love instead of sorrow now.”
“Okay… I will….”
“Don’t ever think otherwise from now on.”
I nodded, hooking my finger with the one he offered. We looked at each other and vowed never to part from each other again, to form a happy family of three with our Ho-ppang.
***
And about three weeks later, a small welcome party was held at the house we returned to.
“Yuwon, sit here. Taebeom, you sit here too.”
“Thank you, teacher.”
I didn’t ask for details after that incident, but Kim Sangchul, who was caught quickly, was immediately handed over to the prosecution. The charges were attempted special murder and possession of firearms. I overheard the uncles saying he would rot in prison for life.
I was strangely proud of my hyung for resolving it more ethically than I expected. I had thought he might secretly take him away, kill him, and throw him into the sea. It was my small hope that my hyung would gradually distance himself from such things, as our Ho-ppang would be born soon and should learn from what he sees.
“Gasp, what’s that ring on your hand, teacher?”
“You noticed?”
Teacher Yoon Seol-ah’s face flushed slightly. She held out her hand.
“I’m getting married next month.”
“With Uncle Gichan? Congratulations!”
It seems their families finally accepted their love despite the opposition. I sincerely congratulated her, and the teacher smiled happily.
“So, Yuwon. Can I ask you for a favor?”
“What kind of favor? I don’t know what it is, but I’ll do anything I can for you!”
“My wedding bouquet. Could you catch it, Yuwon?”
“Oh….”
Come to think of it, although we had decided to have our wedding slowly after Ho-ppang was born, we hadn’t discussed it in detail. We had been so busy with various things. For now, we had postponed it until after the birth because of Ho-ppang, who was growing bigger every day.
“Um… is that okay…?”
Actually, we had already registered our marriage, but I thought, ‘Since we haven’t had a wedding ceremony, it should be okay to catch it, right?’ As I hesitated and glanced sideways, my hyung nodded slightly as if to say I could do as I wished.
“Then I’ll catch it!”
“Thank you. I thought I’d be so happy if you caught it, Yuwon.”
I never dreamed I would catch the teacher’s bouquet. It was also amazing that the teacher who had watched all our processes was getting married. I tightly held my hyung’s hand under the table and imagined an exciting future.
The party where everyone gathered went smoothly. And to the point where it was unclear whether this party was for my hyung or for me, everything centered around me.
“Madam! Please blow out the candles!”
“We’ve prepared a chocolate fountain that you like over there, Madam. Ah, shall I roast some marshmallows for you too?”
“Madam, this is non-alcoholic champagne with a refreshing apple flavor that will suit your taste. Would you like a glass?”
My hyung’s eyebrows twitched as if displeased, looking at the uncles surrounding me.
It was understandable for him to be uncomfortable, as they were ignoring the main character at what was supposed to be a party celebrating his discharge from the hospital. Of course, it was true that I hadn’t been home either as I stayed at the hospital due to my hyung’s extended hospitalization, but still….
“Stop.”
“For the young master, we’ve selected classical music-“
“This is called s’mores-“
My hyung’s words were completely drowned out by the uncles’ voices, but I could hear him sitting right next to me. Was I the only one tense in this powder keg situation? Everyone else seemed cheerful and excited.
“Stop!”
“Gasp.”
“Hic-“
Finally, everyone sat down only after my hyung raised his voice. I burst into laughter at the suddenly chilled atmosphere, as if I had expected this.
“Kuk, kheu, puha ha-.”
Ah, it’s too funny. After laughing for a while until tears formed at the corners of my eyes, I finally opened my eyes to see everyone looking at me with curious faces. Is it because it’s been a long time since I laughed like this? I felt my heart full with the affection in everyone’s eyes.
I slowly stood up and picked up the champagne glass that Uncle Dongjun had brought.
“Uncles, thank you all so much! I’m back safely! Please take care of me from now on!”
As I shouted loudly, the uncles also stood up and held out their glasses, following me.
“Hyung, you do it too!”
At my urging, my hyung also stood up and held out his glass.
“…Let’s postpone the moving out for now.”
“Yay!”
“Boss, you’re the best!”
The uncles’ cheers spread so loudly it seemed they would cross over the walls, and everyone looked at each other with happy faces.
Our happy welcome party was a success.
***
Today was the day we were supposed to go on a trip with my hyung. When I said I wanted to go to the sea, my hyung nodded and made travel plans as soon as the last month’s check-up results came out. My hyung was serious about the trip, even consulting with the obstetrician in charge. But in the end, because he wouldn’t tell me where we were going until the very end, I only packed myself.
“Hmm… We’re not going abroad again, are we?”
It wasn’t particularly scary to go to a foreign country, but if it was abroad, there would be a lot to pack, so I said it as if testing him.
“No.”
“Then are we taking a plane, car, or train?”
“Are we playing twenty questions?”
My hyung smiled and held my hand tightly with one hand while carrying the suitcase with the other. When did he pack this…? I gave him a look of admiration, wondering if he had packed while I was sleeping, without saying a word.
“Let’s go now.”
I quietly headed outside, following his guiding hand. It felt strange in the quiet parking lot where there was no one else, as if we were really going alone.
“A picnic would have been nice too… Perfect for this autumn weather!”
“…This is why.”
“What?”
I couldn’t hear well because of the navigation sound. When I asked what he said, he spoke with a face that seemed somewhat sulky, though I wasn’t sure if it was my imagination.
“This is why I wanted to go just the two of us.”
“Oh….”
“I don’t like you always thinking about other people.”
I was at a loss for words at his frank statement. I guess I’ve been insensitive all this time…. He must have had a lot bottled up, as he even mentioned the name of the former boxing gym owner. My head gradually lowered.
Damn… Why is my face getting so hot? I rubbed both cheeks, which were burning up even though the heater wasn’t on.
The sudden flush from his jealousy was brief as the car entered the highway and headed towards a familiar place.
“Gimpo Airport…?”
This is where I committed quite a lot of sins…. Haha…. Is it because I read a lot of novels usually? My imagination was quite impressive. I had tried to shake him off by sending my phone to Incheon Airport and taking various subway transfers. Seeing Gimpo Airport reminded me of that time, so I deliberately put on the prettiest smile I could manage.
They say you can’t spit on a smiling face.
As I smiled until my cheeks cramped, feeling guilty in advance, my hyung gently tapped my face and stopped the car. Hmm… Seeing that it’s the domestic terminal, it doesn’t seem to be abroad at least.
“Are we going to Busan by any chance?”