I've Been Possessed, But What If I Get Pregnant First? - C107
#107
“No, don’t. Hic… I was wrong, sob, I was wrong… Please stop now…”
“Get a hold of yourself, Cha Yuwon!”
“No, hic… Go away, go away… No, ah…”
Yuwon, sobbing with unfocused eyes, convulsed more and more violently. Like someone who had forgotten how to breathe, he made choking sounds while pushing Taebeom away, then desperately clung to him again, pulling him close.
“I, I was wrong… Don’t, hic, don’t leave…”
“Cha Yuwon…”
“I was wrong… I’m sorry… Huuugh… I was wrong…”
Yuwon wanted to run away from here. He wanted to disappear from this cruel reality. He resented himself so much for hurting Taebeom with his own hands. He felt like he would go crazy with belated regret, wondering why he hadn’t died earlier.
His head was filled with a ringing sound. Taebeom caressed his cheek, but Yuwon closed his eyes after imprinting Taebeom’s face in his mind for the last time.
“Cha Yuwon!”
Taebeom embraced and shook the broken Yuwon, but he didn’t open his eyes. He didn’t want to see Yuwon like this. He deeply regretted sending Yuwon away in the past.
He should not have sent him away like that. He should have said something. He should not have turned away. Numerous regrets and pain overflowed. He gritted his teeth and spoke as if grinding them.
“Bring that bastard here.”
“Boss, we need to treat you first…!”
“Park Junseok.”
At Taebeom’s voice that seemed to flow from hell, Junseok had no choice but to nod. Instead, he tore his shirt to stop Taebeom’s bleeding.
However, Taebeom only received very basic treatment before getting up. He didn’t want to leave Yuwon here for even a minute or a second. Taebeom’s footsteps, cradling Yuwon with precious hands, hurriedly left the warehouse.
***
Arriving at the hospital, Taebeom checked Yuwon’s condition first, putting off treatment for his own wound. Although there was nothing seriously wrong with his body besides simple malnutrition and bruises, Yuwon showed no signs of waking up due to the strong psychological shock.
“Director Kwon, for now, patient Cha Yuwon has been given a sedative and is in a stable condition. However, psychiatric treatment seems inevitable.”
“Is there anything wrong with his body? Any other stab wounds or drug use?”
Even as he spoke, Taebeom’s fingertips trembled. While worried about the shock Yuwon must have received, the shock Taebeom received from Yuwon trying to do such an act was also considerable.
“No, fortunately, thanks to your initial response… But what about your treatment, Director…”
As the doctor recommended treatment, Junseok entered the hospital room.
“Boss.”
“I’ll receive treatment a little later, so you can leave now.”
“I understand…”
At Taebeom’s refusal, the doctor bowed and left.
It wasn’t time to be calmly receiving treatment. The sharp pain was barely keeping Taebeom’s mind awake. He looked at Yuwon with worried eyes but couldn’t bring himself to touch him.
Junseok carefully brought up the matter at hand.
“It seems that crazy bastard… kept playing this.”
Cracks appeared on Taebeom’s face as he watched the video Junseok played. This was a video Taebeom knew well. How could he not know? If there was a reason to show this to Yuwon, the purpose was all too transparent.
“How did that bastard know about this?”
He himself had only recently learned about Yuwon’s parents. Taebeom wondered how that bastard knew this fact and tormented Yuwon.
“It seems information leaked from the prosecutor’s office.”
“Wasn’t he the son of the Chief Prosecutor of Uijeongbu District Prosecutors’ Office?”
“Yes. Kim Sangchul’s father is Chief Prosecutor Kim Sangjun, and his mother is the second daughter of Shin Jungsu, chairman of Ina Group.”
Taebeom’s eyes flashed dangerously before he spoke.
“From today, cut off Ina’s funding channels and exclude companies investing in Ina from IPO investment consideration.”
“Understood.”
“Where is Kim Sangchul now?”
Taebeom’s eyes narrowed at Kim Sangchul’s whereabouts, which were still unknown. The image of when he first discovered Yuwon trapped in that damn warehouse remained as an afterimage, stirring in his mind.
Taebeom tightly closed his eyes, holding Yuwon’s small hand as he slept.
Yuwon had seen that video. And he had come to know everything about that incident.
Yuwon’s words, repeating only that he was sorry without even being able to ask for forgiveness, felt like sharp blades carving into his heart.
This was why he didn’t want to tell Yuwon. He had kept his distance thinking it would only hurt both of them. He didn’t know it would be such a big wound for Yuwon.
After Yuwon’s confession, Taebeom kept worrying about Yuwon in a corner of his heart. He had only thought of him as a younger brother, but he didn’t understand why he cared so much about every little thing about Yuwon. And when he heard that Yuwon had been kidnapped, he regretted turning away from Yuwon’s confession without even realizing it himself.
Regret… When he realized that emotion, his feelings were complicated. Could he really overcome the wall that existed between Yuwon and himself? And would it be okay to keep Yuwon by his side, which was always anxious and dangerous? Wouldn’t it be his own greed?
“What should I do? What would you like me to do?”
Taebeom looked at Yuwon with a confused face and let out a long sigh.
***
“Yuwon, how are you feeling today?”
“……”
Like long dark clouds clearing, my mind started to return little by little. But it wasn’t welcome. The clearer my mind became, the more vivid the memories I wanted to avoid became.
“Yuwon, you don’t want to talk today either?”
“……”
Teacher Yoon Seolah, sitting across from me, was looking at me with a pitiful face.
Why is she looking so sad? A small question arose. My parents are bad people. They’re people who have harmed others, so is it okay for me to receive such concern?
“If it’s hard to speak, would you like to pick up one of these dolls in front? If you pick up the left doll, it means yes, and if you pick up the right doll, it means no.”
The teacher placed two small dolls in front of me.
“You don’t want to do this either?”
Just picking up a doll or sitting here like this was all bothersome. I just wanted to lie down again… When I just stared out the window without answering, the teacher didn’t press further and started writing various things on her chart.
In the end, the counseling session ended without even attempting proper counseling. I trudged back to my hospital room and lay down on the bed. All day long, I hid under the blanket, covering my body tightly and looking out the window. Spring must be approaching, as the buds at the ends of the tree branches were green.
“Yuwon, you didn’t eat anything today either?”
I heard grandmother’s voice from behind. She must have stopped by before going to the store, as the sun outside was still high in the sky. I closed my eyes, letting grandmother’s words from behind go in one ear and out the other.
“Are you really going to starve yourself to death? Huh? Look at your body! You’re as skinny as a wooden skewer!”
My eyes opened at the word ‘die’ that entered my ears. Die… I could die. Dying is also an option.
As if finding an answer in grandmother’s words, my mind suddenly cleared for once. I’m sorry to grandmother, but I’ve done my best so far. I’ve endured to change this damn situation, for my happiness and my family’s peace.
But this was the result of that effort. Even if they call me a coward… no, I am a coward. But I just want to stop this hellish life now.
The thought that had occurred impulsively gradually turned into a concrete plan. I had quite a lot of medicine that I hadn’t taken secretly all this time. I gathered them all and hid them deep in the shelf.
Countless days passed without even knowing how I spent each day. The buds that had sprouted green on the tree branches bore fruit, and cherry blossom petals like popcorn scattered like flower rain.
“Yuwon-“
The teacher spotted me from outside the window and waved with a bright smile. Pretty teacher. Smart teacher. Kind teacher. I wish there was someone as good as the teacher next to hyung… No, actually, I hate it. I hate the idea of someone else being next to hyung.
As I weakly waved at the teacher, I suddenly felt nauseous.
Even though I knew all of that. Even though I knew all the reasons why we couldn’t be together, I hated myself for still being selfish.
I hurriedly drew the curtains and burrowed into the blanket. Even though I had just thought it would be good to have someone like the teacher next to hyung, my chest hurt so much. When I imagined someone else beside hyung in my mind, it felt like my heart was being torn apart.
Just a little more, let’s endure just a little more. I pressed hard on the stinging area near my heart and placed my arm over my tear-stained eyes.
***
“…Grandmother.”
Maybe it’s because I haven’t spoken for so long. My voice was very hoarse and sounded metallic. But grandmother’s expression wasn’t entirely dark, as the situation had improved a lot since the beginning.
“I want to be discharged now.”
“…Yuwon.”