I've Been Possessed, But What If I Get Pregnant First? - C103
#103
[Seoul’s temperature at the start of the new year has reached record-breaking cold, and as we move into January 2nd-]
Taebeom’s eyes flickered sensitively at the sound of the weather forecast coming from the TV he had turned on mindlessly.
“Shit…”
It was already past midnight. He thought Yuwon wouldn’t still be waiting, but knowing how stubborn Yuwon could be, he felt uneasy. Taebeom reluctantly picked up his phone and called Yuwon.
[The customer’s phone is turned off. You will be connected to voicemail after the beep-]
“Ha… really.”
Taebeom let out a deep sigh at Yuwon’s turned-off phone. Taebeom’s hand, tightly gripping the steering wheel, didn’t move.
He didn’t think Yuwon had gone home. Yuwon would probably be there until he came. Knowing this, Taebeom increased the speed of his car.
Screeech-
Stopping the car quickly in front of the coffee shop, Taebeom could see Yuwon shivering with a pale face.
He really was a kid who didn’t listen. He should know when to give up after waiting that long. The veins on Taebeom’s hand stood out prominently as he clenched it tightly.
“Are you stupid?”
“…Hyung?”
Taebeom felt a surge of heat rising inside him at the gaze looking at him with sparkling eyes despite the tired face. Taebeom approached Yuwon with large strides and gritted his teeth at the sight of him wearing only a coat, exposing his wrists and ankles.
“Hyung. Th-thank you for coming!”
Yuwon smiled brightly at the fact that Taebeom had come, his blue lips trembling. Looking at Yuwon like this, Taebeom’s face suddenly contorted.
“It’s been a while. Have you been well? Why is your face so hurt?”
“Just tell me what you want.”
Taebeom ignored Yuwon’s skin, which had turned red from the cold. Yuwon nodded, put his hand in his pocket to take out a paper, and grabbed Taebeom’s hand. Taebeom frowned and looked down at his hand. Then Yuwon flinched, muttered “It’s too cold, I’m sorry,” and quickly removed his hand. Taebeom felt uneasy again at Yuwon’s ice-cold body temperature.
“What is this?”
“Um… that, that’s, well, you said back then that you’d grant me one wish, whatever it was…?”
With a reddened face, as if he had caught a cold, Yuwon’s lips trembled. When Taebeom didn’t answer, he hesitated for a moment before suddenly putting strength into his eyes.
“Hyung, I’m… now an adult!”
“……”
“I like you a lot, hyung. Actually, I’ve liked you all this time. So… won’t you date me?”
Yuwon continued speaking, embarrassedly scratching the back of his head.
“…As my wish, won’t you… date me…?”
“…Cha Yuwon.”
“Yes…?”
Taebeom, with a tired face, put his hand in his pocket and took out his wallet. Then he took out some money and held it out to Yuwon, speaking in a flat voice.
“You know well that this is nonsense. Go home. Don’t come looking for me again.”
“Wh-why are you giving me this? I didn’t come here for money…”
Taebeom met eyes filled with shock at his words. Yuwon’s lip corners trembled, biting his lips tightly as if trying not to cry, looking like he might crumble at any moment.
Taebeom let out a deep sigh, ran his hand through his hair, and looked down at Yuwon. Yuwon clung to him as if he knew this was their last meeting.
“Hyung, I’ve li-liked you from the start. I’m not joking, I really like you. It’s… I know I’m still young, but even for a month… No! Even for just a week, won’t you date me…?”
Taebeom looked at Yuwon’s face, tears falling down his frozen cheeks as his eyes gradually filled with tears. The desperate voice mixed with sorrow resonated in Taebeom’s chest.
Yuwon, crying as if pouring out everything, looked like he might collapse at any moment. Taebeom, who had been watching silently, took off his outer coat and put it over Yuwon. Then he spoke in a firm voice.
“Go now. Don’t come looking for me again.”
“Why, why? Because I’m too young?”
“Because it’s you.”
“What…?”
As the hurt face was reflected in his eyes, something welled up in his chest. Taebeom just kept telling himself that this unidentifiable emotion was because of his mother. He spoke with an emotionless face, removing Yuwon’s hand.
“It’s because it’s you that we can’t be together. I’m… abandoning you now. So you should stop thinking about me too. Let’s not see each other again, Cha Yuwon.”
“Hyung…! Hyung, d-don’t go, please…. Hic, hyung… I like you…. Taebeom hyung!”
Taebeom walked away slowly, ignoring the cries from behind. Yuwon’s voice, unable to follow and just calling his name, resonated in his heart.
He gritted his teeth and suppressed his emotions so much that his nails dug into his palms. It was just the memories of his mother surfacing and causing pain. That was all.
***
The first digit of his age had changed, and he had become an adult, but nothing else had changed. He was still afraid that Kim Sangchul’s group might come to grandmother’s store, and he still missed hyung desperately every night.
“I’m going out for a bit, so eat your meals properly. Don’t skip them. Understood?”
He couldn’t remember when he had last eaten. Did he not eat yesterday either? The smell of grandmother’s food wafted through the open door, but he had no appetite.
Soon after, with the sound of the door closing, the house became quiet again. Only then did he get up from the bed. He grabbed whatever outer clothing he could find and left.
When he came out to the living room, neatly prepared side dishes were set on the table. He knew it was grandmother’s care, but his stomach still didn’t feel good, so he passed by and left the house.
After changing buses several times, he arrived at the place where Kwon Taebeom’s company was located.
After that, almost every day, he would go to the front of the company alone and wait endlessly for him. If he was lucky, he could see him for a moment.
Once, he even had such a thought. If he was going to manifest as an omega anyway, he wished he had become a dominant omega. Would he have looked at him then? Would he not have abandoned him like this? He thought.
He never imagined he would think like this, wanting to be closer to Kwon Taebeom, when he had hated becoming an omega more than death.
“Ah… it’s hyung.”
Today too, as usual, Kwon Taebeom was busy moving around with several people. He could only see him for a few seconds until he got into the car parked at the main entrance of the company, but he smiled at the fact that he could see him.
“He looks handsome today too… But why has he lost so much weight…. Is he having a hard time?”
He muttered to himself, endlessly watching the car disappearing at high speed. His legs were numb from crouching for a long time. Even after Kwon Taebeom’s car had completely disappeared, he couldn’t leave his spot, and only after a long time did he finally get up and pat his numb thighs.
The way here seemed to pass in an instant, but the way back felt somehow long and arduous. After getting off at the bus stop, he walked for a long time with heavy, listless steps. As he was turning into a familiar alley, someone grabbed him by the nape and took him to a secluded area.
“Ugh, this, ah…!”
Startled, he tried to shout while flailing his legs, but his mouth was firmly covered by the man’s hand, and only small muffled sounds came out.
“Mmph, mm, hmm!”
“Ah, this bastard!”
When he scratched down the hand covering his mouth with his nails, the man released his face with a curse.
“Kim… Sangchul?”
It was Kim Sangchul. He had come around a few times even after he quit school, but it was a face he had forgotten about as he hadn’t shown up for the past few months.
“Why are you…”
With his hair dyed bright yellow and covered in tattoos, he still looked unsavory. As I frowned and glared at him, Kim Sangchul smirked as if I was ridiculous and waved his hand.
“Have you been well, omega? Now you’re really a full-fledged omega.”
His voice, emphasizing the word ‘omega’ mockingly, was still the same. I didn’t even have the energy to waste emotions on such words anymore. I turned my head, ignoring Kim Sangchul who no longer held any meaning for me. Then Kim Sangchul grabbed my wrist and threatened me.
“Where do you think you’re running off to?”
“Let go.”
“You seem to have gotten even weaker?”
Kim Sangchul looked at me with a leering gaze and rubbed my skin.
“Stop, ugh-“
“Oh, you smell good too.”
Then he buried his nose in my neck and took a deep breath. I felt like I was going to vomit.
I pushed Kim Sangchul’s head away with all my strength and scratched hard at the skin where his breath had touched with my nails. The thin skin was scratched and stung, but it felt like bugs were crawling on my body, so I couldn’t stop.
“Hng, ngh!”
“Hey, fuck, what are you doing!”
As I scratched my neck again with my nails, Kim Sangchul cursed and grabbed my hand tightly.
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