I've Been Possessed, But What If I Get Pregnant First? - C100
#100
The first day of school ended after simple classes where we asked about each other’s well-being. Being on classroom duty from the first day was a bit unlucky, but it was a decent day overall.
I had to hurry to prepare ingredients before the restaurant opened. As I was about to leave the classroom with urgent steps, Kim Sangchul blocked me at the door.
“Hey, let’s talk.”
His friends who always stuck together must have left first, as only Kim Sangchul and I were in the classroom. Not knowing what he might do, I clenched my fists and glared at him.
“I have nothing to say to you.”
“Hey, fu- Stop playing hard to get and let’s talk.”
“Hah… Hey, Kim Sangchul.”
When would this terrible connection between Kim Sangchul and me end? Would it end if we just graduated? I was sick of this routine that had been repeating for years now.
“Do you like me?”
“…What?”
Kim Sangchul’s contorted expression answered for him, as if caught off guard.
I never imagined he actually liked me. It felt like bugs were crawling all over my body, and my heart felt completely twisted.
His gaze always following me while pretending not to, and especially that incident at the end-of-term ceremony, were blatant enough to reveal that he liked me. Just thinking about that day when he forcibly dragged me to a karaoke room and tried to rape me made me feel suffocated and want to kill Kim Sangchul right away.
“I hate you.”
“……”
“I hate you so much that I think every day how I wish you would die.”
“Hey, Cha Yuwon. Who said they li-liked a dirty omega bitch like you-“
Kim Sangchul, who had been listening to me, raised his fist threateningly. Though it looked like he might slap my cheek at any moment, I didn’t even flinch.
“If that’s not the case, you shouldn’t have looked so surprised.”
“……”
“You’re really a cowardly bastard.”
“Fuck, this is why I-!”
Kim Sangchul gritted his teeth and pressed down hard on my shoulder as he continued speaking.
“This is why I bullied you all this time. Because that’s the only way you would look at me!”
It was truly the worst. To think he tormented me so horribly all this time just because of such an emotion. To turn his anger from his own twisted feelings he couldn’t understand towards me. It was so cowardly, I couldn’t even laugh.
I felt sorry for all the hardships and years I had endured. I pitied myself, the blood and tears I had shed. Everything felt so futile.
“Let go.”
“Hey, Cha Yuwon!”
“I said let go before I really kill you!”
Kim Sangchul let go of me when I shouted with all my might. I glared at him, gritting my teeth.
“Don’t talk to me again. Don’t even act like you know me. Just don’t appear in front of me.”
I left the classroom alone, abandoning Kim Sangchul who followed me with clouded eyes. I wanted to see hyung quickly. I wanted to go to him. I didn’t want to cry because of someone who amounted to so little.
I firmly set my jaw and suppressed the emotions welling up inside me. As I quickened my pace, I eventually started running towards the boxing gym. I wanted to feel his hand patting my head soon. I wanted to lean into his firm embrace that held me tightly.
“Haa, hah… Phew…”
Even the few seconds waiting for the light to change at the intersection felt anxious. As soon as it turned green, I dashed across the crosswalk and ran like an arrow towards the boxing gym. I climbed the stairs in one go and grabbed the doorknob with my trembling thighs.
“How was the blind date?”
“Just, you know…”
“Was she pretty?”
What’s this? I stopped in my tracks, gripping the doorknob tightly at the familiar voice coming from the doorway.
‘Blind date…?’
My long eyelashes fluttered as I exhaled softly. It can’t be, it won’t be. Thinking this, I pressed my lower lip and quietly closed my mouth as their conversation continued.
“You said she was the second daughter of Il-jae Pharmaceuticals?”
“Yeah.”
“Whew, you lucky bastard. If it’s Il-jae Pharmaceuticals, I heard she’s famously pretty! And she’s a dominant omega too?”
“Yeah.”
“Is that all you can say? Anyway, you’re not getting any younger, so think about it carefully. And the connection the family made…”
Unable to bear hearing any more of their conversation, I turned and left the building. I ran and ran so much that I couldn’t even remember how I got home.
My legs, already pushed to their limit, stumbled and fell on the ground, scraping my skin on the asphalt. But the pain in my heart hurt more than the physical pain.
‘Right, he’s someone so different from me. We live in different worlds.’
It might have been a miracle that we even knew each other in the first place. My feelings for hyung crumbled helplessly along with my tears, wetting the ground.
After crouching there for a long time, I staggered in through the front door. My head had been aching terribly. With each exhale, I felt like I would suffocate from the hot air.
“I’ll rest a little… I’m tired.”
I got into bed and rested my hot, heavy head on the pillow. I didn’t want to think about anything and just wanted to sleep a little.
***
I nearly died from a fever that rose all night. In the early hours of the morning. It was so dangerous that I might have died if grandmother, returning home after finishing work at the store, hadn’t checked on me.
An immense pain arose as if someone was carving out my lower abdomen with a knife. There was also a burning pain like someone forcibly pushing fireballs between my blood vessels. By the time I crawled out of bed and into the living room, I had exhausted all my energy and lost consciousness.
Through my blurry vision, I could see grandmother calling me repeatedly with a very distressed face.
And when I opened my eyes.
“You have manifested as an omega.”
A death sentence was pronounced.
“What did you just say…”
The doctor, adjusting his glasses with an expressionless face, spoke impassively.
“It’s later than the average manifestation age, but it’s not a very rare case. However, there seems to have been an acquired reason – have you had any contact with an alpha recently?”
When the doctor said that, Kwon Taebeom’s face came to mind. His phenotype, said to be a dominant alpha among alphas.
“Can, can that be a reason?”
“Of course. Especially in Cha Yuwon’s case.”
The doctor glanced down at me, then tapped his chart and continued speaking.
“There was already a high probability of being an extremely, extremely recessive omega, and if you were exposed to a dominant alpha’s pheromones on top of that, it seems that became the trigger for manifestation.”
A dominant alpha… it could only be hyung. For the first time, I felt resentful towards Kwon Taebeom. No matter how I thought about it, there was no other reason for suddenly manifesting just a few months before turning twenty.
“Then, is there a way to go back to being a beta? I, I don’t want to be an omega, doctor.”
“Once you’ve manifested as an omega and the pheromone glands have fully formed, there doesn’t seem to be a way to go back.”
Moreover, due to the decreasing number of omegas over the years, pheromone gland removal surgery was not legal in our country.
“Then what, what should I… hic.”
In the end, the speculation that had been weighing on me and tormenting me became reality. An omega, me becoming an omega.
I wanted to jump out the window right away. I scratched frantically at everything within reach and thrashed about, but the tears wouldn’t stop. Just then, grandmother, who had gone to get water, approached me with a startled face.
“Oh no, baby! Yuwon!”
Grandmother quickly grabbed my hands and examined the wounds. Her face was full of worry as she looked at the bleeding areas.
“Baby!”
“Grandmother…”
“It’s okay, everything’s okay.”
Grandmother, who had been soothing me saying it was okay while rubbing my back, eventually wiped away her own tears. I felt sorry for showing her this side of me, when she must have been very shocked from me suddenly collapsing and being taken to the hospital.
But it felt like a huge wave that I could no longer withstand had appeared before me, demolishing everything I had barely been enduring until now.
“Grandmother, they say I’m an omega…”
I guess you do laugh when something is so absurd and ridiculous. As I burst into hollow laughter, my body trembled. I ended up sobbing loudly in grandmother’s arms.
“They say I’m an omega… huu…”
“Baby…”
“What do I do now? Hic, what do I do? I hate this. Really, huuaa…”
I had never cried like this in front of grandmother before. I always suppressed all my emotions and only cried buried under the blankets in the early morning after grandmother fell asleep. Seeing me cry like this, as if letting go of everything, must have been very shocking for grandmother too.
As I leaned against her small, frail frame and kept shedding tears, the doctor said:
“Guardian, I think the patient needs to rest first. Please explain the situation to him thoroughly.”
Then, as he was leaving the room, I hastily reached out as if to grab the retreating doctor.
“Baby. It’s okay. You’re an omega but recessive, and if you take your medicine well…”
“But, but I’m still an omega.”
Was everyone expecting me to manifest as an omega after all? Is that why they spoke so certainly about me being an omega at school?
Memes From Aida