If You Want Me - Episode 95
<Episode 95>
“Hot…”
Seo-won muttered in a faint voice with furrowed brows.
Despite sleeping soundly, he didn’t feel refreshed. It felt like something hot and heavy was pressing down on his body.
Is this sleep paralysis? Seo-won opened his eyes feeling extremely uncomfortable and realized the hot and heavy feeling wasn’t just in his mind but the actual situation.
Through the sunlight streaming in from the window, Do-gyeom could be seen sleeping soundly with his eyes closed. Just two adult men lying on a single bed would be hot enough, but on top of that, Do-gyeom was tightly hugging Seo-won.
The heaviness he felt was because Do-gyeom’s firm arm was pressing down on his body… Having roughly grasped the situation, Seo-won asked him in a small voice,
“Hyung. Are you sleeping?”
“…”
Seo-won looked up at him blankly and asked, but Do-gyeom didn’t budge with his eyes neatly closed. He looked deeply asleep.
Why is he sleeping here like this? When he said he would sleep on the sofa before… He said he would be grateful with just not sleeping on the floor, but did he come to the bed because the sofa was uncomfortable?
It was absurd how he boldly said that before but was sleeping like this now, but it’s not like Seo-won was in a bad mood because Do-gyeom changed his words. Sneaking in and sleeping while tightly hugging Seo-won felt cute, like a child who couldn’t sleep alone and came running to his room.
Seo-won was thirsty but hesitated to get up to drink water since Do-gyeom was holding him tightly. Even if he moved carefully, Do-gyeom was quite sensitive so it seemed he would wake him up.
In the end, all Seo-won could do was stay still in his arms and gaze at Do-gyeom. As he vacantly looked at Do-gyeom in front of him, an exclamation unconsciously slipped out.
“So handsome…”
Even when they continued their relationship as partners, he often worried about how their relationship would turn out in the future while stealing glances at Do-gyeom sleeping. It was so absurd that they were nothing to each other besides partners, but being by his side was so sweet that he pretended not to know his worries.
Truthfully, it would be a lie to say the anxiety had completely disappeared now, but he could relax and admire Do-gyeom’s face more than before.
His thick eyebrows that were neatly groomed, his sharp atmosphere when his eyes were open but looking gentle when closed, his sharp nose bridge and strong jawline. Everything was textbook handsome. Even if he wasn’t born in a chaebol family and wasn’t smart, he had a face that would somehow live well.
He thought he liked Do-gyeom’s other aspects more than his appearance, but since his appearance was so outstanding, there were times he seriously thought if he liked him because of his looks.
No… I don’t usually look at him this closely, but staring blankly is making me think useless thoughts. Stealing glances at someone’s face like this is also rude, so let’s stop looking.
Thinking that, Seo-won barely took his eyes off Do-gyeom’s face. And remembering the cell phone he put by the bedside, he tried to carefully move his body, but then Do-gyeom’s voice was heard.
“Nothing else to say?”
Startled, Seo-won turned his gaze back to Do-gyeom and saw him looking at Seo-won with a face showing no hint of drowsiness.
“…You surprised me. When did you wake up?”
“Since you started fidgeting?”
“…”
When was that? Not much time had passed since he tried to stay still so as to not wake Do-gyeom up, so it seemed he had been awake the whole time.
“If you woke up, you should have said something.”
“If I did, you would have told me to move.”
Do-gyeom said that and put strength in his arms to hug Seo-won tighter. As their bodies completely touched, his crotch rubbed against Seo-won’s bottom.
His thing was hard like a club. Morning wood wasn’t that embarrassing so he wanted to pretend like nothing happened… But he couldn’t stay still as it rubbed densely against his bottom.
Feeling the situation flowing erotically, Seo-won tried to suddenly get away from Do-gyeom’s body, but before he could escape his hands, Do-gyeom’s firm thigh entered between Seo-won’s legs. It was a movement with clear intention.
“Ah, hyung… Don’t do it. I’m thirsty. I want to drink water.”
“Calling me hyung makes me want to do this more though.”
Seo-won made excuses and begged to be released, trying to escape from the snare-like hands, but Do-gyeom spoke cunningly and stuck to him more like an octopus suction cup.
It’s not that he completely hated Do-gyeom sticking to him, but Seo-won was really thirsty and didn’t want to physically unite as soon as he opened his eyes in the morning either. He was hungry too.
As he struggled and tried to get up, Do-gyeom placed his chin on Seo-won’s shoulder, ignoring him, and asked,
“So nothing else to say?”
“What? What else is there to say?”
“You said I’m handsome. Is that all?”
Ah…! It seemed he heard the monologue Seo-won said thinking he was asleep.
Seo-won was instantly filled with embarrassment and shame as if his hidden private life had been exposed. The back of his neck became hot.
“Don’t eavesdrop on things like that…!”
“I didn’t eavesdrop, you said it openly.”
“That’s because I said it thinking you were sleeping…”
“I was just lying with my eyes closed too.”
Do-gyeom was obviously pretending to sleep to anyone’s eyes, but he shamelessly played dumb as if he had never deceived Seo-won. Seo-won thought earlier that Do-gyeom could live off his face too, but now it seemed being an actor was perfect for him.
“Let go.”
“You’re not going to say more?”
Seo-won barely removed Do-gyeom’s hand wrapped around his body and sat up, but Do-gyeom hugged his waist while lying down and rested his head on Seo-won’s thigh, sticking to him again.
Like this, he couldn’t escape the bed. It seemed Do-gyeom wouldn’t let go until he heard what he wanted to hear.
“Ah, seriously… There’s nothing more to say?”
“Compliment me more.”
Do-gyeom said smiling with his eyes crinkled.
Seriously… Asking to compliment him more. Is he a puppy or what, asking for that?
It seemed like he was spouting nonsense, but he seemed to have a knack for utilizing his appearance. Isn’t it cheating to smile like that at times like this? Seo-won’s ears turned red.
“What nonsense are you saying? Get off me…”
“Seo-won-ah.”
Do-gyeom pressed his face against Seo-won’s belly and didn’t let go, dragging out his words in a way that didn’t suit him.
It seemed like he was aegyo-ing which didn’t suit him, but Seo-won couldn’t push him away because it seemed like behavior he only showed to Seo-won.
I’m really thirsty and need to go to the bathroom…
Like that, Seo-won had to suffer for a long time until he said he loved him.
* * *
After returning to Seoul, it was similar to usual. Because he rested at home and decided to move into the apartment starting next week, all he did was occasionally stop by to bring luggage from his parents’ house.
Like that, the day before moving, Do-gyeom suggested having dinner together after work.
Although Do-gyeom said he would come to pick Seo-won up in front of his house, Seo-won secretly went to find Do-gyeom at his company because he felt bad about Do-gyeom always coming to his house.
An employee ID was required to enter the company building, but Seo-won had one Do-gyeom gave him before, so it was easy to get in. As he familiarly found his way to the executive director’s office, Secretary Bae working in front of the office caught his eye. Seo-won carefully approached him and lightly greeted.
“Hello, Secretary Bae.”
“Oh, Seo-won-ssi. Did you come to see the executive director?”
“Yes.”
Although he came in time for getting off work, judging by the looks of it, work didn’t seem to be finished yet.
When Seo-won nodded, Secretary Bae immediately got up from his seat and said,
“Then I’ll tell him you’re here.”
“Ah, no! Don’t tell him. It seems like it would disturb him, so I’ll wait until he’s done working.”
“Ah… You want to do that? It does seem like it’ll end soon though.”
At Seo-won’s words, Secretary Bae seemed a little flustered, then soon understood. To Secretary Bae’s thinking as well, if he mentioned Seo-won was here, it seemed Do-gyeom would drop everything else and come out.
Seo-won was going to quietly wait like that without disturbing anyone, but Secretary Bae didn’t sit back down.
“Then I’ll bring out some tea at least.”
“It’s okay. I’m not thirsty.”
“Wouldn’t it be nice to rest for a bit while at it? Shall we go to the break room?”
Seo-won waved his hands in surprise, saying there was no need, but Secretary Bae joked that now was the chance to rest.
Although he occasionally talked with Secretary Bae, they weren’t very close… Is it because Secretary Bae seems to be in a good mood today? He had only seen his stiff face recently, but now he looked quite relaxed.
As Seo-won followed Secretary Bae who took the lead to the break room on the same floor, he brought out chrysanthemum tea. Receiving the cup with both hands, warmth spread under his palms.
“Thank you…”
“Be careful, it’s hot.”
Saying that, Secretary Bae also made himself a cup using the roasting machine. His was dark black coffee.
Drinking coffee at a late hour. Is work busy? As he was thinking for a moment, Secretary Bae sat across from Seo-won with his coffee and opened his mouth.
“I have something I’m curious about regarding Seo-won-ssi… May I ask one thing?”
“Me? What is it?”
What could Secretary Bae be curious about regarding me?
As Seo-won blinked in wonder, Secretary Bae nodded and looked around. After confirming no one else was around, he lowered his voice and asked,
“By any chance… what are you planning to do with the executive director? It seemed like you were pregnant last time I saw.”
“Ah…”
No matter how much I thought, I believed there was nothing Secretary Bae would be curious about regarding me… So it was about this.
Come to think of it, Secretary Bae was someone who roughly knew everything that happened between Seo-won and Do-gyeom. He knew Do-gyeom had a one-sided imprint on Seo-won, heard Do-gyeom blatantly say he wanted to hug and sleep with Seo-won on the island, and also witnessed with his own eyes that Seo-won got pregnant after returning to Seoul.
Last time when Do-gyeom openly kissed Seo-won’s forehead, he thought he should explain, but Secretary Bae knew too much to make excuses that they weren’t in that kind of relationship.
Although Do-gyeom hadn’t said to keep their dating a secret, Seo-won hesitated on whether it was okay to reveal they decided to date. He was also worried Do-gyeom might become the subject of unsavory rumors.
As Seo-won agonized without easily answering, Secretary Bae asked again.
“Are you going to get married?”
“What? M-marriage?”
I thought he was asking if we were dating, but suddenly marriage?