If You Want Me - Episode 72
<Episode 72>
I only had that thought for a moment, yet he says my pheromones turned sexy?
Even though I thought there was no way, seeing Do-gyeom notice without me saying anything, it seemed my pheromones had indeed become strange and erotic. Even if I wanted to hide it, pheromones don’t lie.
Embarrassment and a sense of defeat rushed in, but sighing would be like admitting it. So Seo-won played dumb.
“T-That’s not it.”
“What were you thinking about to get so sexy? Did you imagine having sex with me?”
“Not imagine…!”
“Then were you recalling old memories?”
“…”
Seo-won tried to raise his voice in outrage at the lewd remarks, but Do-gyeom’s next words left him speechless. It hit the nail on the head.
Silence can sometimes signify strong affirmation. That was the case now. As if he expected it, Do-gyeom spoke to Seo-won in a somewhat relaxed voice.
“I’m glad at least my dick seems to your liking.”
“Di… W-What nonsense are you…!”
He couldn’t bring himself to say the vulgar word “dick”. It felt like his mouth would get dirty if he said it out loud.
Although it may not be visible in the dark room, Seo-won glared at him sharply.
“I never liked anything like that, and what if the baby hears? Stop with the crude remarks and just go to sleep.”
“Are you worried it will have a bad influence on the baby?”
“Of course.”
To Do-gyeom’s question that still carried a light attitude, Seo-won answered firmly.
Like other pregnant omegas, he couldn’t make efforts such as listening to prenatal music good for the baby’s emotional development, eating nutritious food, or getting regular health checkups. So he at least wanted to avoid doing bad things. For example, not swearing or hearing it, not smelling cigarette smoke, not drinking coffee, things like that.
Then, as if saying it’s too late to worry about that now, Do-gyeom replied,
“If you were worried about that, you should have come to me first. Being separated from the bonded alpha is the worst influence on the fetus.”
As if Seo-won’s current actions weren’t for the baby’s sake at all.
Whether it was intentional or not, to Seo-won, those words sounded like sarcasm. Does he think it was easy for him to make this choice? Seo-won retorted right away, feeling upset.
“That’s why I tried to go to you. But you rejected me when I confessed that I like you and that I’m pregnant.”
“…I’m saying let’s do well from now on.”
Realizing he misspoke as he tried to steer things in an erotic direction, Do-gyeom changed his attitude and made excuses.
Seeing him, Seo-won let out a small sigh. On the day he decided to confess to Do-gyeom before, he had imagined a future discussing the baby in his belly with him.
In his imagination, he and Do-gyeom looked so happy. Having serious discussions about how to raise the child well and caring for each other, he had pictured such an affectionate future.
But the actual conversation between him and Do-gyeom was so far from that. The gap with his fantasies made him feel even more desolate.
He got upset at the sarcastic remark, but recalling what he had imagined made him feel like crying even more. He wasn’t sure if it was because he became sensitive due to pregnancy or because Do-gyeom cornered him into this situation.
As the bridge of his nose stung and tears were about to burst out, Do-gyeom seemed to sense the mood and apologized cautiously.
“I misspoke. I’m sorry. Don’t cry.”
“…I’m not crying.”
Seo-won had the personality of crying even more when told not to cry, so he felt like he would shed more tears.
If he burst into tears, it seemed like the situation would only get awkward. He deliberately stiffened his expression and tried to turn his body, but Do-gyeom took it as him being angry and asked hesitantly.
“Do you hate me that much? To the point you don’t even want to associate with me?”
“…”
It wasn’t that he hated him. He just couldn’t trust his feelings.
For 6 years as pheromone partners, Seo-won had consoled himself that it was enough, but he recently realized that wasn’t the case. He didn’t want to see someone else by Do-gyeom’s side.
Now that he was trying to sever the ties of lingering attachment, he was pushing Do-gyeom away out of fear that he and the baby would both be abandoned in the future by relying on him, who may be under a misunderstanding due to the one-sided imprint.
However, saying these true feelings was pointless since the current Do-gyeom would just say that could never happen. As Seo-won didn’t answer at all, Do-gyeom must have taken it as affirmation and made a suggestion in a voice full of regret.
“Then just use me.”
“What does that mean…?”
Use him?
Seo-won’s tears disappeared, unable to understand why the conversation suddenly flowed that way. Blinking his eyes in confusion about what Do-gyeom was saying, Do-gyeom continued.
“I mean it literally. You want to raise the baby to be healthy, right? And now you hate me so much you don’t even want to see me anymore.”
“…”
“Use me to extort money or make me release my pheromones for the baby’s sake. After giving birth, when I’m no longer of use, you can throw me away then. So please come back to Seoul instead of staying in a place like this. Get proper hospital checkups too.”
Listening quietly to what he was saying… Do-gyeom meant Seo-won could treat him like a pushover and use him as long as he stayed by his side.
As someone who had never intentionally approached someone with materialistic motives like wealth or family background, it was a suggestion Seo-won couldn’t understand. He also wasn’t the type to do such things morally and not feel guilty.
There were various reasons, but putting aside those many reasons, there was the biggest reason it was hard for him to accept Do-gyeom’s proposal.
“What if I stay by your side and the one-sided imprint gets released? Then you’ll blame me again, won’t you?”
Back to square one.
As soon as he returns to his original self, it’s all over. Right now, he’s even suggesting to let Seo-won use him, but when that time comes, he may get angry and growl, asking how dare Seo-won use him like that. So how could he do it?
As Seo-won repeated the same words as before, Do-gyeom persuaded in a voice full of frustration as if it was so agonizing, but in a tone that seemed like he was trying not to get angry.
“I won’t blame you. If you’re that worried, we can write up a contract.”
“…Last time we wrote a contract too, but it wasn’t kept properly.”
Seo-won knew Do-gyeom liked contracts. He was a man who even wrote contracts for trivial deals before.
However, the promise wasn’t properly kept even after writing a contract last time, so he wasn’t very reassured. As Seo-won looked at him with unimpressed eyes, Do-gyeom refuted.
“You lied then too. Saying you liked me.”
“…”
But he did have someone he liked, so it wasn’t really a lie…
Although he had that thought, he couldn’t really argue back either. As Seo-won didn’t say anything, Do-gyeom spoke seriously.
“If I tell you to get rid of the baby or try to take it away or harm it, I’ll give you my company shares.”
“C-Company shares?”
Seo-won stuttered with his eyes wide open in surprise. Company shares, does he mean the department store where he works as the executive director?
Do-gyeom’s company was a family business passed down for generations. Moreover, it was a large conglomerate that touched upon every industry in Korea. Yet he’s saying he’ll give Seo-won the shares he owns?
Putting aside the astronomical amount of money involved, if someone business-illiterate like Seo-won were to receive those massive shares, it could ruin the company they had built. Some people may gladly take it, but the scale was so large it was scary.
“T-There’s no need to go that far…”
“It’s better to be sure. I’m confident I won’t do that.”
“…”
Although Seo-won got scared and backed down, Do-gyeom spoke confidently while looking him straight in the eyes.
Perhaps it was because the moonlight was reflected in his eyes, but a sense of trust could be strongly felt as if he would keep this no matter what happens. If a business partner said that with such eyes and confidence, it seemed like anyone would stamp the contract with tremendous momentum.
Seo-won hesitated on whether he needed to receive such an excessive collateral, but he thought it might be better to have it just in case.
It’s not that he really intended to take it. If the condition was handing over the company, Do-gyeom wouldn’t be able to touch the baby later when he comes to his senses. Right now, what Seo-won feared most was losing the baby or having it taken away later… He thought it might be good to have such a contract.
After contemplating for a moment, Seo-won asked, wanting to hear the conditions first.
“Then what do I have to do?”
“First, come up to Seoul with me. And don’t disappear without a word.”
Of course, putting up such a big condition, he thought it wouldn’t be a contract to simply use him.
But no matter how he heard it, this was a contract where Do-gyeom was taking a 100% loss. It was strange that he was so desperate to win such an unfair contract.
Could there be a catch in his words about “not disappearing from him”? Unable to let go of his suspicion, Seo-won thought for a moment, and Do-gyeom explained further as if he knew what Seo-won was thinking.
“I absolutely don’t mean to date or sleep together like before. I have no intention of pressuring you like that. Just don’t suddenly leave without a word like last time or this time.”
“Is that really… all you need?”
“Yes. As long as you keep that, I can support you in every way, materially and emotionally. Whether it’s about the baby or your matters.”