If You Want Me - Episode 54
<Episode 54>
Do-gyeom looked at the closed executive director’s office door with dumbfounded eyes like someone who had been turned away for no reason.
He couldn’t process what Seo-won had said or what situation had just transpired. Do-gyeom muttered to himself, organizing what Seo-won had said.
“So… Yoon Seo-won liked me? It was me, not that thug bastard?”
It was fortunate that Seo-won’s taste wasn’t just at the level of a thug and that he wasn’t carrying the child of a man who couldn’t guarantee a future.
But it was shocking that Seo-won liked him and was carrying his child.
“And he was my partner despite that?”
For some reason, he felt a sense of betrayal that Seo-won had deceived him. They had been intimate for 6 whole years, yet Seo-won had harbored such dark ulterior motives?
Moreover, Seo-won was also his sex partner who relieved his pheromones. He had taken money and fulfilled his own desires. Do-gyeom felt humiliated as if he had sold his body, and he was going crazy because of that brat’s coyness. It felt like Seo-won had fucked him over and tossed him aside.
He wanted to call Seo-won back right away and confront him, but he was the one who had first proposed being partners. Moreover, he was also the one who had clung on and not let go of someone who said they wanted to stop now.
Perhaps because there was no one to blame, his chest felt stuffy and annoyance rose to the top of his head. Do-gyeom was seeping unpleasant pheromones into the air when he suddenly recalled what Seo-won had said earlier.
“But what does he mean by looking at him with those eyes? What about the morning-after pill?”
He could let go of the partner thing since he had requested it and the baby had been conceived by accident that day, but he had no idea why Seo-won was angry before he left.
How did I look at Yoon Seo-won? It was right after hearing such shocking news, so he couldn’t remember what kind of eyes he had looked at Seo-won with.
He had asked about the morning-after pill because the chances of getting pregnant were extremely low for a male omega in the first place, and if he had taken the morning-after pill, it was close to 0%. He had asked because he couldn’t believe Seo-won had gotten pregnant despite those miraculous odds.
He thought he should clear up the misunderstanding, but his own emotions were also running high and his words didn’t come out nicely.
Thinking about it belatedly, the person who would have been most shocked upon finding out about the pregnancy was probably Yoon Seo-won, so he regretted pushing him too hard. But that was about it.
“I didn’t tell him to do anything with the baby… Why is he suddenly telling me not to worry about child support?”
Sometimes there were alphas who said they didn’t mean to get the omega pregnant and tried to avoid responsibility by clinging on pathetically.
But it wasn’t like Do-gyeom didn’t have money or was in a situation where he couldn’t take responsibility. Rather, even when he thought Seo-won was pregnant with Jihwan’s child, he had tried to help him receive support.
But what was Yoon Seo-won thinking, telling him not to worry about that and treating him like a trash alpha?
If anything, shouldn’t I be the one who’s upset? As Do-gyeom narrowed his eyes and was picturing Seo-won’s last appearance, someone knocked on the door.
Knock knock.
Could it be Yoon Seo-won coming back? Could he have belatedly realized that he had strangely jumped to conclusions and returned?
Now that he had somewhat grasped the situation, he looked towards the door, thinking of having a calm conversation. But the person who opened the door and entered wasn’t Yoon Seo-won, but Secretary Bae.
“I brought clothes for Mr. Yoon Seo-won to wear.”
“…”
For a moment, Do-gyeom looked at him with disappointed eyes. How did he come so quickly when it hadn’t been long since he sent him? Secretary Bae had simply completed the task quickly, but Do-gyeom didn’t like it for some reason.
Do-gyeom glanced at the clothes in Secretary Bae’s hands. Since there was a huge difference in his and Seo-won’s builds, it was clearly a size he couldn’t wear even at a glance.
“Throw them away.”
“Pardon? But Mr. Yoon Seo-won…”
“I said throw them away since they’re not needed.”
“…Understood.”
Secretary Bae confirmed that Seo-won wasn’t in the executive director’s office and that Do-gyeom’s condition wasn’t very good, then quickly retreated.
Left alone in the large room again, Do-gyeom sat back down in his chair, forgetting his hunger, and let out a frustrated sigh.
It was a situation that made him angry. He thought he should stop seeking out Yoon Seo-won because he had been treated like that, his pride was hurt, and it was absurd. He even thought he wouldn’t care what Seo-won did from now on.
But he couldn’t do that after all.
It wasn’t because he thought he needed to see Seo-won due to the pain from the one-sided imprint. It wasn’t because he wanted to accept Seo-won’s feelings either.
He just didn’t want to see Yoon Seo-won, who was pregnant, struggling to raise the child alone.
He just… wanted Seo-won to be happy by his side. He wanted to hold onto him.
If his mother found out about this, she would surely flip out, so he couldn’t rashly approach Seo-won. Do-gyeom closed his eyes, thinking he should think about it for now.
And after that day, Do-gyeom had to suffer for several days with memories of being with Seo-won when they were young.
“Young Master.”
In his hazy vision, a small boy flickered in front of his eyes.
White, slender, small. With chubbier cheeks than now, making it impossible to abandon the thought that he was cute. It was Seo-won’s appearance from over a decade ago.
“Are you sleepy?”
Young Seo-won, who had been studying while sitting on the floor, turned to look at him.
Do-gyeom was lying in Seo-won’s small room with his legs stretched out. It was midsummer, but there was no air conditioner installed, and a rattling fan from who knows where was spinning. Every time the fan turned towards Seo-won, his light-colored hair fluttered.
Perhaps because the floor was cool, he didn’t feel hot. Rather, it felt just right. Do-gyeom slightly raised the corners of his mouth and answered.
“I don’t know if it’s because your room is small, but I seem to get sleepy easily whenever I come to your room.”
“What does the room being small have to do with that…”
Seo-won muttered, asking if Do-gyeom was insulting him. But it was true. His own room was large and empty, so he had a hard time falling asleep when he lay alone at night.
Because of that, Do-gyeom needed the housekeeper to read him a book in order to sleep until he was in the upper grades of elementary school. He could sleep alone now, but he often took short naps or had nightmares.
But that didn’t happen when he was in Seo-won’s room. Perhaps because the room was small, he didn’t feel the strange anxiety he felt when he was in his own room. It was comfortable.
As if saying Do-gyeom was talking nonsense, Seo-won answered and turned his back again as if to study. Disappointed that he couldn’t see his face, Do-gyeom said something pointless.
“You have to take naps and stuff to grow taller.”
“…Have you ever thought that you’re too tall, Young Master?”
“You’re 5th in height ranking.”
“When was that…”
Seo-won turned around, fuming at the mention of height. He meant he wasn’t that short now.
However, not only was there a 5-year age gap at an age of growth, but Do-gyeom had also grown explosively tall after presenting as a dominant alpha. So in Do-gyeom’s eyes, Seo-won always looked small and doll-like.
Do-gyeom tapped Seo-won’s hand that was on the floor and spoke in a playful voice.
“Let’s sleep together.”
“Sleep alone. I have to do my homework.”
“I’ll help you later, so hurry.”
“…”
Seo-won refused, saying he was busy, but he hesitated as if he was slightly tempted by the offer to help with his homework.
Due to circumstances, he couldn’t receive private education and only took classes at school, so he often asked Do-gyeom a little whenever he got stuck while studying.
Do-gyeom also had a knack for teaching, so whenever he taught Seo-won, Seo-won made a face of realization. That was so cute that he taught him from time to time.
Perhaps that was effective, as Seo-won pondered for a while and then spoke as if making a request.
“Only for 10 minutes.”
“Yeah, yeah.”
Whether it was 10 minutes or whatever, let’s close our eyes for a bit. Do-gyeom stretched out one arm to the side as if to say lay down.
As if obeying, Seo-won hesitated and then lay down, resting his head on Do-gyeom’s arm. Even though he was wearing clothes, the feeling of Seo-won’s head touching his arm felt strangely ticklish. It felt good somehow, so Do-gyeom slightly raised the corners of his mouth with his eyes closed.
Whirr whirr…
Only the noise of the old fan filled the room, and Seo-won, who had been breathing evenly, broke the silence.
“Young Master. By the way… there’s something I’m curious about.”
“What is it?”
“If I become a dominant alpha… will I grow that tall too?”
What… a dominant alpha? Do-gyeom slightly furrowed his brow at Seo-won’s question.
Last time, he was also spouting nonsense about wanting to be a dominant alpha… Has he still not given up on that expectation?
Before presenting, you can hope to present as anything since you can become anything. But, really… in his opinion, Seo-won didn’t suit a dominant alpha. No, he didn’t even suit an alpha in general. It’s not that he’s trying to belittle him… Anyway, the image just didn’t fit. He didn’t know why he thought that way either.
Last time, when he bluntly said that Seo-won didn’t suit an alpha, Seo-won was disappointed, so he couldn’t say it out loud. Do-gyeom composed his expression before Seo-won could see and answered nonchalantly.
“Usually, that would be the case, right? They say dominant alphas tend to have large builds.”
“Is that why? Young Master, you seem to have a good body even though you don’t really exercise.”
“Me? What, have you seen my body before?”
Do-gyeom teasingly looked down at Seo-won as if he were a pervert. He said it without much thought.
But Seo-won, who had been looking this way, turned his face bright red. He had a face that showed he felt caught.