If You Want Me - Episode 53
<Episode 53>
“…What?”
The warm and kind energy that had been in Do-gyeom’s eyes froze in an instant.
He looked dumbfounded as if suddenly doused with cold water. He didn’t say anything for a moment as if he didn’t know what Seo-won was talking about, then belatedly opened his mouth with a serious face.
“Then who is it?”
“It’s you, Young Master.”
“…Huh?”
When Seo-won answered right away as if he had been waiting, this time Do-gyeom blinked his eyes as if he was very surprised.
Well, he seemed like he didn’t know… Anyway, even if he didn’t know, if his heart was the same as mine, we would start dating. Maybe we could even draw a new future together.
With that expectation, Seo-won waited for Do-gyeom’s answer, but he seemed to have a hard time accepting the fact that Seo-won liked him. He moved his lips and couldn’t erase the surprised look on his face.
“You, what are you talking about right now? Why are you making such a joke?”
“I’m serious. I’ve only liked you since I was young. I’ve never liked anyone else.”
“…”
“You kissed me before you went to study abroad. Since then, I…”
“Wait a minute.”
It seemed like he thought Seo-won’s confession was a joke, so Seo-won tried to tell him one by one since when he liked him and why he accepted his proposal to be his pheromone partner. But Do-gyeom cut him off without listening.
He took a step back, putting distance between him and Seo-won, then swept his stiffly hardened face with his palm. Covering his mouth with his hand, he looked at Seo-won with wary eyes.
“You’ve liked me since then? Then what about the baby?”
“…I think the baby was conceived in the US when the rut and heat cycle came.”
“If it was then… it’s my child, isn’t it?”
That’s right. When Seo-won slowly nodded his head, Do-gyeom’s face, which had been filled with surprise, turned pale this time.
I knew it would be surprising. Do-gyeom seemed like he had never even thought that Seo-won looked at him that way, and he even firmly believed that the child was Jihwan’s.
So it was natural to be surprised… But the Do-gyeom in front of me had a shocked face as if he had lost the world. It was the first time seeing him so shaken.
The feeling of happiness and anticipation instantly subsided. An uneasy feeling crept up his spine.
Was something wrong? Was this not the right timing? Should I have given hints little by little and approached slowly? His mind became complicated like a tangled thread.
Seo-won looked at Do-gyeom with anxious eyes and waited for an answer. After carefully choosing his words for a while, he let out a big sigh and asked Seo-won as if interrogating.
“This is driving me crazy… I gave you a morning-after pill that day. Don’t tell me you didn’t take it?”
There was no answer to the confession.
He had a face that couldn’t understand how and why a baby had suddenly been conceived.
Furthermore, he seemed to suspect that Seo-won had deliberately not taken the morning-after pill to have his child.
Seo-won was so surprised for a moment that he couldn’t say anything. He never thought Do-gyeom would have such a misunderstanding. He felt dazed as if he had been hit on the head with a hammer.
Although this situation was very confusing, Seo-won hurriedly denied it as if he had been branded as an omega who deliberately had his child to blackmail him.
“No! I took it. I took it, but… I don’t know if it had no effect…”
“…”
“I didn’t deliberately get greedy to have your child! Really… Please believe me.”
At Do-gyeom’s cold gaze, Seo-won found himself begging when he came to his senses.
Mom definitely said it. She said Do-gyeom likes me. She said his actions, the pregnancy, and the imprinting were not behaviors that could come out if he didn’t like me. Otherwise, she said he was trash.
So for the first time, I had hopes and confessed to him. I told him I’ve liked him all along from the beginning until now. I told him the child is actually not Jihwan’s but his.
But Do-gyeom…
“Fuck, is it really my child…?”
He wasn’t happy at all.
Rather, he was rubbing his face with a shocked expression like someone who had been swept up in something he didn’t want, and was rambling curses.
If Do-gyeom really liked me, there’s no way he would have reacted like this. Ah, in the end, he was the type of person Mom called trash.
It’s not that I didn’t consider being rejected. If I was rejected by him and forced to abort the child, I had even made a plan to sell the house with Mom and go abroad.
But the feeling of actually experiencing it compared to what I imagined… was the worst beyond words.
Moreover, he even suspected me of deliberately not taking the morning-after pill. To him, I was no different from those omegas, even though he was a special person to me. I was just a convenient male omega to use.
“Ha…”
Seo-won let out a small empty laugh and backed away a little.
It felt like all the memories of the days spent with him were being denied and torn to shreds.
We had always been together for enough time to be half of my life. But at his reaction, it felt like an empty, futile emotion as if that part had been cut out with a knife. I thought it was okay even if I didn’t become his special person. I thought it was okay to just be his partner. It was a useless time.
Now that I think about it, he had said something similar to this before. He said it would make him feel dirty if someone else fucked me. I felt as dirty as when I heard those words, no, even dirtier than when I heard those words.
My eyes quickly became hot, but I didn’t want to become even more miserable in front of him. I didn’t want to fall to the bottom.
Seo-won bit his lower lip so hard that it bled, then pretended to be fine and told him.
“I won’t do things like asking you to raise the child, give me child support, or give me shares.”
“What?”
“That’s what you’re upset about right now, aren’t you? Don’t worry.”
Just because I said I liked him doesn’t mean he has an obligation to accept it. So I think it can’t be helped that he rejects me.
But I was upset that he had such an absurd misunderstanding. It’s true that I was paid to be his pheromone partner, but the reason I stayed by his side for such a long time wasn’t simply because of money. It came from my feelings of liking him.
Don’t misunderstand. I won’t be an obstacle in front of you, so don’t worry, I was about to say and turn around right away. Do-gyeom grabbed my wrist and retorted with an absurd face.
“When did I say that? What did I worry about?”
Until just now, he had a face like he had lost the world because of my confession. He asked me if I didn’t take the morning-after pill… Did he think I wouldn’t know that?
No matter how clueless I was, I knew. Seo-won roughly shook off Do-gyeom’s hand and said.
“You just did. You asked me if I didn’t take the morning-after pill, and you looked at me with those eyes. Do you think I wouldn’t know?”
“What did I…”
“I’m an idiot for opening my heart to someone like you.”
“…What did you say?”
“Don’t look for me again. Figure out how to solve the one-sided imprint or pheromone overdose on your own. I told you when we made the deal. I said I hope to never see you again if I win. Don’t see me starting from today.”
It wasn’t a lie that I had someone I liked. Because I had always liked Do-gyeom.
So I tried to tell him not to hold onto me anymore and turn around, but Do-gyeom didn’t let go of Seo-won. He grabbed Seo-won with a stronger grip and made a face that couldn’t understand.
“Ha… Yoon Seo-won. Say it in a way that I can understand what you’ve been talking about. Why are you doing this?”
“…”
“What was wrong with my reaction? Are you doing this because I was a bit upset? You said you liked someone else, but it turned out you liked me, and you hid it while being my partner, and you acted like it was Jihwan’s child, then suddenly you say it’s my child. How am I supposed to accept this? Ha, should I clap my hands and be happy?”
Do-gyeom sarcastically asked if that was possible in a common-sense way.
Seo-won turned his head sharply at his sharp words and actions. I didn’t expect him to be happy while doing Hollywood action like in foreign dramas. Such a reaction didn’t suit him anyway.
“I didn’t even hope for you to be happy. But for you to go this far…”
At first, I thought it could be a one-sided imprint by accident, as I had thought, so I had rejection in mind. It was a scenario I had drawn where he simply had a hard time accepting my feelings and told me to abort the child.
But… At least he shouldn’t treat me like this, right?
“…What’s the point of saying it? Nothing will change anyway.”
I wanted to argue so badly, but it was obvious that he wouldn’t understand even if I said it. Even now, he had an absurd face as if he didn’t know what he did wrong.
“If you don’t want a commotion at the company, don’t hold onto me anymore.”
“Ha…”
When Seo-won glared at him sharply and spoke as if shooting, Do-gyeom let out an empty laugh as if it was absurd.
Seo-won left the executive director’s office with Do-gyeom behind him. He didn’t hold onto him this time, perhaps because the threat worked.
With a loud bang, the door closed. The tightly closed door seemed to symbolize the severance of their relationship.