If You Want Me - Episode 43
<Episode 43>
Did the word “clothes” have a big meaning? He tried to think if there was another meaning, but he began to get a throbbing headache.
“Ugh…”
Seo-won let out a small groan and stopped thinking. He thought he was simply feeling unwell. But after vomiting and seeing the two people arguing in front of him, his head hurt and fatigue washed over him.
Even if he continued the date in this state, would he be able to create a sweet atmosphere? No, he didn’t think so. Jihwan also seemed to be trying to send him home, and he couldn’t eat anything, had no strength… He just wanted to lie down and sleep.
“Stop fighting already… My head is killing me…”
Seo-won said while pressing his temples with his fingertips. Then Do-gyeom and Jihwan, who had been arguing, immediately became quiet.
As the surroundings became quiet, his churning stomach and the headache that was squeezing his head also subsided a bit. Seo-won let out a small breath and opened his mouth, looking at Jihwan.
“Jihwan, I’m sorry for asking you to meet me. My condition is really bad… I’ll contact you next time.”
“Are you saying you’re going to go home now, supported by that person?”
“Yeah… He said I left my clothes at home, so I have no choice…”
“Haa…”
Jihwan sighed as if it was absurd.
Seo-won had never seen Jihwan get angry because they hadn’t talked much. It was a bit scary to see a person he hadn’t known for long, and one with a sharp impression, stiffening his expression.
Seo-won understood that it was a situation where Jihwan could get angry. He had asked him to meet, but then suddenly vomited and even had another alpha show up and drench him in pheromones. Even Seo-won would find it absurd and get angry.
As he opened his mouth to apologize properly, Jihwan muttered softly while looking at Seo-won and Do-gyeom.
“I didn’t know you had that kind of relationship. No wonder it seemed strange.”
“What…?”
“Never mind. Go and rest. Contact me.”
Until just now, Jihwan looked like he was really angry and seemed like he would argue with Do-gyeom, saying he would take Seo-won back.
But unexpectedly, he quickly composed his expression back to normal and took a step back. Seo-won didn’t know what change of heart he had, but it was fortunate for him whose condition had hit rock bottom.
Seo-won had a lot to say to Jihwan, but since Do-gyeom was next to him, it seemed he should go home for now and apologize and explain the situation next time.
“Sorry. I’ll definitely contact you.”
“Let’s go.”
As Seo-won spoke in a voice full of lingering feelings, Do-gyeom supported Seo-won by pressing his body close as if there was no need to drag out the time any longer.
Just how much did he see him as a patient? There was no need to support him to this extent…
“Y-you don’t have to support me like this. I can walk on my own.”
“It’ll be easier if I help you.”
When Seo-won tried to refuse the excessive consideration and twisted his body, Do-gyeom forcibly supported him, applying strength to his hand as if telling him to stay still. In the end, Seo-won couldn’t shake off his support.
As Seo-won and Do-gyeom left the coffee shop like that, Jihwan didn’t budge from the restroom.
* * *
“Get in.”
Do-gyeom said as he opened the back door of the car parked on the street.
Seo-won looked at him a bit absurdly. He clearly saw Do-gyeom follow him on foot… He had no idea when Do-gyeom had made the chauffeur wait.
Is this really necessary? It wasn’t even a distance that required a car ride, and there were already rumors going around in the village that Seo-won was being chased by loan sharks… If he got into an expensive-looking car with Do-gyeom, who drew attention, wouldn’t it be like adding fuel to the burning gossip?
So he was reluctant to get in, but the chauffeur Seo-won had met and talked to a few times, although not close, was in the driver’s seat. It was hard to ignore him and pass by.
Seo-won finally sighed secretly and got into the car. As Do-gyeom followed and sat in the back seat, the car started smoothly.
“…”
There were three people sitting in the car, but no one spoke up, so it was quiet. The car was nice, so the lack of any noise seemed to make the atmosphere more uncomfortable.
By the way, why did Jihwan react like that earlier? Apart from being angry, he seemed to have a lot to say. It bothered Seo-won as to why he was like that. He planned to contact Jihwan as soon as Do-gyeom returned to Seoul and ask, but it weighed on his mind.
As he gloomily turned his gaze out the window, Do-gyeom, who had been quietly looking at Seo-won, asked in a low voice.
“Are you that upset about not being able to go on a date?”
“…”
It’s not that he was upset about not being able to go on a date, but he felt sorry for leaving Jihwan like that… And he was disappointed that he missed the opportunity to prove himself to Do-gyeom after saying he would.
However, rather than telling the truth, it seemed like it would make him look more like someone who was really one-sidedly in love, so he didn’t answer.
As Seo-won remained silent and only looked out the window, Do-gyeom said as if comforting him.
“You can go on a date next time. If it’s someone you have to meet even while enduring sickness, it’s better not to meet them.”
“…”
It meant that if they were really a good person, they would understand and be considerate if Seo-won was sick.
It wasn’t wrong. But for some reason, Seo-won felt like it was referring specifically to Do-gyeom.
Because Seo-won was sick more often than happy when he was with Do-gyeom.
Because he suppressed his heart from coming out and endured his emotions.
Because he couldn’t bring himself to tell Do-gyeom not to go out when his stepmother forcibly set him up on a blind date with an omega…
Seo-won closed his eyes with his head leaning against the window. His body and heart felt like they were in tatters.
* * *
“Yoon Seo-won. Wake up, we’re home.”
“Mmm…”
Even though they had arrived home, Yoon Seo-won showed no signs of waking up.
It was a distance close enough to walk, but Yoon Seo-won had fallen fast asleep in that short time. No matter how you looked at it, it didn’t seem like his condition was simply bad.
It would have been fine to let him sleep in the car, but there was no way sitting and sleeping would be comfortable. Do-gyeom was about to shake Seo-won’s body to wake him up, but he thought it would be better to just let him sleep, so he didn’t bother waking him up.
Instead, Do-gyeom rummaged through Seo-won’s pockets like a pickpocket and took out the house keys. Then he had the chauffeur open the door and carried Seo-won in his arms.
Even as they entered the house, Seo-won couldn’t properly regain consciousness. He seemed to be vaguely saying something, but he couldn’t speak properly as if his tongue was twisted.
When he laid the half-asleep Seo-won on the bed, he fell asleep again right away. Earlier he said his condition was simply bad…
As Do-gyeom sat at the foot of the bed and looked at Seo-won’s face, the chauffeur who had followed him in fidgeted next to him and asked.
“Is there anything else you need…?”
“Go out.”
Do-gyeom answered in a small voice so as not to wake Seo-won and sent the chauffeur out of the house.
Since the owner of the house was sleeping, there was nothing he could do, so Do-gyeom just quietly looked at Seo-won.
Even though he had seen Seo-won’s sleeping face countless times while they were partners… These days, every time he saw Seo-won sleeping, it felt new.
When they were partners, Do-gyeom would often look at Seo-won’s sleeping face in amazement, wondering how the kid who used to be so cheeky could grow up like this. If he looked closely, a lot of his childhood face remained, but back then he was just cute, and now he was pretty too. He thought it might be because Seo-won manifested as an omega and let it go at that.
But these days… It felt precious as if he had regained something he had been losing. Even on the day Seo-won came to Seoul, Do-gyeom woke up early in the morning, and he couldn’t take his eyes off Seo-won who was sleeping on top of him. He stared at him like that, not knowing how much time had passed until morning came.
…Is it because he was mine but I lost him?
Until their partner relationship, seeing Seo-won’s sleeping face was a natural part of everyday life, but now that it was gone, he kept staring at him because he felt empty. He couldn’t figure out the reason.
As he was quietly staring without knowing the reason, suddenly the face of the alpha guy Seo-won brought for a date earlier came to mind.
Do-gyeom thought Seo-won was putting on a show to deceive him. But the conversation Seo-won had with the guy named Jihwan at the coffee shop today, and the atmosphere of the conversation… It showed that they weren’t just ordinary acquaintances.
He asked why Seo-won liked him. He was handsome, had a good style, took good care of him, treated him well while pretending not to. He said he made people have expectations…
There was no falsehood in Yoon Seo-won’s voice as he poured out the reasons he liked him, but something bothered him a bit.
Did Yoon Seo-won like that style?
In Do-gyeom’s eyes, that alpha guy was like a punk. He didn’t have a very good impression on the outside, so he couldn’t understand in what way that guy was handsome and had a good style.
Do-gyeom recalled the appearance and clothing style of that alpha guy and looked down at the clothes he was wearing. A white shirt and neat black pants that weren’t too tight. Recalling that alpha guy wearing a linen shirt, ripped jeans, and sandals, it was the complete opposite.
“…Do I dress in a way that makes me look too old?”
He was also bothered by the fact that Seo-won had been emphasizing their five-year age difference to him lately.
Due to work, he often wore a neat suit style. Even when he didn’t have work, his taste was more neat than flashy, so although he dressed lightly, there wasn’t much change in his style.
But now that he thought about it, he felt that it might look old-fashioned. It was the first time he pondered about his style.
Ha, no. But why am I worrying about this? It’s not like I’m desperate to please him.
Do-gyeom suddenly felt a surge of irritation and got up from his seat, taking his eyes off Seo-won. Watching him made him think all sorts of useless thoughts.
Do-gyeom took a deep breath and tried hard to think of something else. And soon, he thought it would be good to have medicine to give Seo-won when he woke up.
“He probably has a prescription for medicine.”
He wanted to buy medicine from the pharmacy, but he didn’t know the name of the illness.
He had told Secretary Bae to find out the name of Seo-won’s illness, but it wasn’t easy to find out his medical records. He told him to do whatever it takes, whether it’s bribing or anything else, regardless of medical laws, but the obstetrics and gynecology clinic Seo-won went to valued the rights of omegas and drew the line, saying they absolutely couldn’t disclose such information.
Damn it, the hospital is also doing business to make money. I’m not going to do anything with the hospital records, so I don’t know why they won’t tell me.
Anyway, there’s no way it’s just a simple cold when he’s vomiting like that and having a hard time… It seemed like he was hiding something from Do-gyeom. There would be medicine at home.
Do-gyeom quietly looked around the house for medicine so as not to wake Seo-won. However, there was no medicine on the table where it would normally be, and even after searching the entire kitchen, there was none.
“Could it be that he hid it tightly because I was coming?”
At this point, it would have been enough to give up, but the thought that Seo-won was keeping it a secret made him think it might be a serious illness.
Once he started thinking that far, he felt like he couldn’t let it go without knowing. As he was thoroughly searching the house and going to the computer where Seo-won used to work, he noticed a drawer on the desk.
Every time he came, Seo-won was working on the computer, so it was a drawer he had never even seen before. He doubted Seo-won would have put the medicine in such a place, but the thought that he might have intentionally hidden it made him open it.
As he rummaged through the drawer with an indifferent face, a pink booklet suddenly caught his eye. It looked like a simple pamphlet, so he was about to pass it over, but Do-gyeom couldn’t help but widen his eyes at the words written on the cover.
“…Pregnant Omega Booklet?”
Pregnant Omega Booklet…
Why does Yoon Seo-won have something like this?