If You Want Me - Episode 116
<Episode 116>
“…”
At Seo-won’s unexpected request, Do-gyeom felt like he had been hit on the head with a hammer. Showing something through actions could be more impactful than saying cool and pretty words.
Do-gyeom stood there a bit flustered and dazed for a moment, then spread his arms and embraced Seo-won. As Do-gyeom hugged Seo-won’s lower back, Seo-won weakly rested his chin on his shoulder and inhaled.
It was a behavior not much different from usual, but perhaps because of the situation, Do-gyeom felt like it was Seo-won trying to swallow his pheromones deep inside.
At that, Do-gyeom also deeply inhaled and held Seo-won’s pheromones to his heart’s content. Seo-won also needed his pheromones in this situation, but in fact, it was the same for Do-gyeom. After imprinting on Seo-won one-sidedly, he had missed and yearned for his pheromones more than anyone else after not seeing him for a long time.
As he inhaled the familiar and his favorite sweet and subtle pheromones into his lungs, the headache that had been suffocating him cleared up as if it had been tightened. At that, Do-gyeom newly felt with his whole body how huge Seo-won’s existence was to him.
My beloved Seo-won.
No matter what happens, I will never let go of him again. As he tightened his arms that were hugging Seo-won and firmly embraced his lower back, Seo-won said in a small voice,
“I missed you so much.”
Even though he only said one thing, it conveyed how much Seo-won had missed him during that time, and Do-gyeom felt his nose bridge sting.
Everything was his fault. He should have tried harder to escape from his father’s men. If he hadn’t taken Seo-won to the dinner meeting before that, he wouldn’t have fallen into a trap. No, if he hadn’t gotten him pregnant in the first place, Seo-won wouldn’t have to suffer like this…
He knew it was already in the past and there were situations he couldn’t help, but he couldn’t erase the thought of ‘if only I had done better’.
“I’m sorry.”
“What is there for you to be sorry about? It’s the chairman who did this.”
“Still…”
“If you keep acting unlike yourself, I’ll kick you out.”
Seo-won said quite sternly, even though he didn’t mean it.
Although Do-gyeom knew Seo-won definitely couldn’t kick him out, he didn’t want to go against Seo-won’s mood as much as possible. Knowing that Seo-won is weak to his requests, Do-gyeom rested his head on his shoulder and said,
“Please understand. I’m like this because I like you.”
“…Hyung, seriously.”
As Do-gyeom wagged his tail like a fox and pleaded even in this moment, Seo-won looked at Do-gyeom with an expression that had a lot to say and let out a chuckle. He laughed as if he didn’t even have the strength to laugh.
As the atmosphere eased like that and they were about to talk about what had happened, the hospital room door slid open with bad timing.
As Do-gyeom turned his head slightly, Seo-won’s mother and a nurse had placed a movable bed in the hallway. It seemed it was time.
Seo-won must have noticed it too, as he released his embracing arms. Seo-won looked at Do-gyeom with a bitter gaze and asked in a slightly weaker voice,
“When I come back from surgery… Hyung might not be here, right?”
Seo-won seemed heavy to leave for the operating room, thinking that Do-gyeom might not be there after the surgery was over.
It was because Do-gyeom had come out for a short time, and it wasn’t just being apart for a day, but it was also uncertain when they could meet again. If there had at least been a promise of waiting, Seo-won wouldn’t have been so afraid to go to the operating room.
Although it wasn’t a surgery that would end soon, it would end today. Since he had received permission for a day, he would have enough time to see Seo-won even after the surgery. He wanted to do that as much as possible too.
Do-gyeom firmly held Seo-won’s hand and asserted,
“I’ll be here. No matter what happens, I’ll be here… so don’t worry and go.”
“…Thank you.”
At Do-gyeom’s words, Seo-won loosened his stiff expression and slightly raised the corners of his mouth. It wasn’t that he felt relieved that Do-gyeom would be there after the surgery, but he seemed to find it a bit funny that Do-gyeom was answering so gravely as if going to a battlefield.
“Yoon Seo-won. We’ll move to the operating room now.”
Although they wanted to talk more, the surgery time didn’t wait for Seo-won and Do-gyeom.
At the urging words that couldn’t wait any longer, Do-gyeom had no choice but to support Seo-won as he got up from the bed and moved to the temporary bed.
As Seo-won barely lay down on the temporary bed, Do-gyeom stroked his head and said in a gentle voice,
“Have a good surgery and come back. I’ll be waiting.”
“…Thank you.”
“I love you.”
Although the nurse and Seo-won’s mother were around, Do-gyeom didn’t care and confessed his love, then kissed Seo-won’s soft cheek.
Even though he had no energy, Seo-won smiled brightly as if he liked it. Seeing a little blood flow in his lifeless and pale face, Do-gyeom was a bit relieved.
He had heard from somewhere that it’s good to have physical strength for surgery too. And mindset is important as well. In that sense, he thought it was fortunate that Seo-won regained some strength, both mentally and physically.
With the love confession as the last greeting, Seo-won entered the operating room. Looking at the light turning on with the words ‘In Surgery’ in front of the operating room, Do-gyeom let out a deep sigh he had been holding back.
“Sigh…”
Although he acted indifferent and comforted Seo-won as if he shouldn’t show his fear in front of him, in fact, his feelings were very complicated too.
In the past, Do-gyeom had never thought about having a child. He didn’t particularly like children, and he had never suffered from an obsession that he must have an heir. He just thought that if it happened naturally, it would happen.
But the memory of finding out Tteokbokki was his child and seeing the fetal ultrasound was so intense and good that he earnestly wished for Tteokbokki to be born and become a member of their family. Especially since Seo-won was a recessive omega and might not be able to have another child, it made him cherish the baby even more.
Both Seo-won and Tteokbokki are strong children, so they will be able to endure well.
No matter what happens, the future where he will be with Seo-won will not change, but he wanted to think of the most positive future possible.
Do-gyeom firmly made up his mind and stood guard in front of the operating room with his mother.
* * *
Drip, drip…
The sound of water drops falling slowly was heard faintly.
It was heavy to open his eyes as if weights were attached to them. As he trembled his eyelids and opened his eyes, he saw a white ceiling. As he blankly stared at it, he could tell it was the ceiling of the hospital room he had been lying in before.
After entering the operating room, he had anesthesia… His vision repeatedly turned black and white, and he felt chills to the point of shivering, then his back would get soaked with sweat from the heat, repeating that over and over, but it seemed the surgery was over.
Although his body still hurt, perhaps as an aftereffect of the surgery, he didn’t lack energy as much as when he entered the operating room. He definitely felt that his condition had improved.
As he was blinking his eyes and gradually regaining consciousness, surprised voices were heard one after another through his numb ears.
“Seo-won.”
“Seo-won!”
When he turned his head with a creak, Do-gyeom and his mother were looking down at him with surprised eyes.
Both of them were surprised to an excessive degree, but it seemed to be because it was the first surgery he had ever had since he was born.
As Seo-won was about to ask why they were both looking at him like that, his mother, who was looking at him, moved her steps in a fluster.
“I-I’ll go call the nurse. Young Master, please watch over him for a bit.”
“Yes, go ahead.”
Did they tell me to call the nurse when I woke up? As Seo-won looked at his mother rushing out of the hospital room with a bit of doubt, Do-gyeom grabbed Seo-won’s hand and asked,
“Seo-won. Are you coming to your senses a bit? How’s your body, are you okay?”
“Yes. But…”
Seo-won was definitely going to ask why they were so surprised until he opened his mouth. He was curious about what happened to Tteokbokki since the surgery was over…
But when he actually opened his mouth, those words didn’t come out. That’s because…
“Why are you crying?”
It was because Do-gyeom suddenly shed tears while looking at him.
He was crying more miserably than when he confessed to him on the island. Come to think of it, the clothes he was wearing before the surgery and the ones he was wearing now were different, and his feeling was quite different. He looked worse than when he briefly saw him before entering the operating room.
What’s going on? Could it be… that the surgery went wrong?
Before the surgery was scheduled, Seo-won heard precautions about the surgery. The doctor said in a devastated tone that his condition was very bad because he had bled too much, and there was a possibility of preterm labor. He even assumed the worst-case scenario where he might have to choose between the child and himself.
At that time, his mother, who was listening to the explanation together, strongly insisted that they should save him unconditionally rather than Tteokbokki… Could that situation have come?
He wanted to ask what happened to Tteokbokki, but he couldn’t bring himself to open his mouth. He was afraid… that he might really hear that it was true.
As Seo-won looked at Do-gyeom with a complicated gaze, he opened his mouth before Seo-won could ask.
“You… almost died. They said you were unconscious for four days.”
“…Me?”
What does that mean? I… almost died?
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