I Became a Beautiful Girl, but I’m still an MMO Junkie - Chapter 88.2

CONTINUATION…

I didn’t mean to say such things.

However, objectively speaking, if I were to express the incident that I caused, I have no choice but to say it like this.

With this… I could see Akane-chan’s feelings that had been struck by the disaster.

“It’s unforgivable, isn’t it?”

I could not forgive my own incompetence at that time. And, even now, while pretending to be a different person from Futsu Jintarou, I could not forgive my own cowardice in trying to find out her true feelings.

‘I feel nauseous.’

However, instead of blindly asking for forgiveness from God, I wanted to face up to my own actions and reconcile my feelings with Akane-chan’s words. No matter what she says, my heart will not be shattered into pieces.

Yuji said, “Nothing has changed.” I will prove that my feelings for her cannot easily change, no matter what Akane-chan thinks of me.

Before coming out to Yuuki and Kouya, I need to confirm it myself. There should be something that won’t change, even if I end up like this. Even if my heart is torn apart, I can rebuild it from scratch after hearing Akane-chan’s words. I just need to gradually shorten the distance between us as before. If it still doesn’t work, I’ll have to give up. I am prepared for that. So, it will be okay.

“Don’t you think so too? That leaking the student’s personal matter is disgusting and perverted?” I asked.

Akane-chan fell silent. Scared and in pain, I waited for her to speak.

“I’m curious about who told you that, but…”

After a blank that felt like eternity, she said.

“That’s not true. Doesn’t everyone feel sick when something is wrong with them?” She sought my agreement with a clear tone.

“I was there, but I didn’t think that way.”

“Aren’t you disappointed?”

“He always works hard. The daily things he does won’t be lost just because of that. I don’t really understand, but isn’t believing in God the same thing?”

‘Why God? Oh, maybe she’s making a comparison that’s easy for me to understand because she thinks I’m a sister.’

“I believe in Jintarou-kun.”

…

How happy those words made me feel. I had been looking down this whole time, but I couldn’t help but look up at Akane-chan’s smiling face, bright like the sun, shining on me.

“Isn’t God willing to forgive even a single mistake?”

Knowing that you think that way is the best thing that could happen to me. I trembled with joy.

At the same time, I had committed a new sin. It’s a shameful act to have lied about my true identity and elicited her feelings despite her saying that she believes in me.

So I had no choice but to confess now, in this place where I’ve revealed my true self.

I was afraid of how Akane-chan will react. My legs shook, but I forced myself to stay strong.

‘I have to confess.’

“Um, actually…Akane-cha–”

“There you are! I’ve been trying to contact you on your phone, I was worried!”

My sister’s voice drowned out my small voice.

…

In the end, I couldn’t come out to Akane-chan. But we had exchanged numbers in the middle of the first semester, so I’ll contact her over summer vacation and find the right time to tell her.

“Hey, Taru. You seem to be in a good mood.”

On the way home from school, my sister, who was holding my hand, suddenly asked me that.

“Well, it’s thanks to you that I can keep going to school, and also because of Yuji.”

But secretly, what made me happiest was that I had heard Akane-chan’s feelings.

“Why are you grinning like that?”

My sister’s exasperated voice disappeared into the summer

evening sky.

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