Contract Marriage with Memory Loss on Top - Chapter 36

If it wasn’t a misunderstanding, he was also in an excited state. Just looking at the front of his pants confirmed it. Even so, Ki-won didn’t try to touch Yeon-woo as he pleased or show any signs of wanting to satisfy his desires. 

“See… Sob, as I thought… It’s like that. Sob.”

Yeon-woo burst into tears that he had barely managed to stop. His vision, which was already dizzy, spun, and the heat of the heat cycle further stirred up his insides.

“You don’t need me anymore, right?”

“Yeon-woo, who determines necessity with something like this?”

Yeon-woo, surprised by Ki-won’s tone, made a dumbfounded face, forgetting to shed tears.

“But….”

“Yeah, speak slowly.”

When Yeon-woo only moved his lips without properly speaking, Ki-won spoke as if comforting a child. Their gazes didn’t leave each other. Yeon-woo, contained in Ki-won’s pitch-black pupils, wriggled his body a few times and mumbled.

“Hyung… you don’t release pheromones, and even though I kissed you first… you keep saying no… As I thought, only I… sob, only I….”

‘It seems like only I like you, hyung.’

Yeon-woo, who had been mumbling and moving his lips, suddenly stiffened his mouth. Even in the midst of his dazed state, he instinctively realized that there were words that shouldn’t be spilled out anymore. Yeon-woo sniffled while calming his suffocating breath. He wanted to mock himself. Despite repeatedly telling himself not to harbor feelings for someone he shouldn’t, he ended up failing.

Ki-won’s expression subtly changed as he quietly listened to the disorganized words. The corner of his mouth seemed to twitch, either going up or being pulled down.

“Yeon-woo, there’s something you’re misunderstanding.”

Ki-won’s eyelids slowly closed and opened. He looked like someone holding something back. The veins on his jaw protruded as he put strength into it, and his composure was no longer visible.

“I’m not that conscientious. If you act like this, I don’t think I can hold back either.”

It was somewhat different from the similar warning he had uttered a little while ago. He stared at Yeon-woo with clear eyes, as if truly giving him the last chance. It was a gaze hinting that the result would differ depending on the answer that followed.

It’s strange, even though he was so dazed and his mind was so complicated, there was an illusion that he had become sane only at this moment. He knows he shouldn’t do this. He knows that even if he is greedy, he will be the only one having a hard time later. Nevertheless, Yeon-woo couldn’t shake his head. The desire to be embraced by him far surpassed his reason.

Just for today, he wanted to do something bad that he couldn’t handle.

“Yeah, let’s postpone the regret for later.”

As soon as Ki-won’s voice was heard, the restraint was released and their lips met.

***

How much time had passed? The aching sensation didn’t stop as if his whole body had been pounded. His throat was so stinging that if he made a sound, it seemed like a hoarse voice would come out unpleasantly. When he slowly parted his lips to test his own voice, it happened.

“Ah, ah.”

Yeon-woo, who had made any sound, was startled before long. No matter how much he had overused his throat, a child’s voice was coming out. Is this even possible? Only then did Yeon-woo lift his eyelids that he had been closing.

“This place….”

Not only had Kwon Ki-won, who had been by his side until a moment ago, disappeared, but a space that couldn’t be seen as inside a house unfolded before his eyes. Yeon-woo was standing alone in that space.

‘Did I end up falling asleep?’

It was strange that his consciousness was vividly alive for having fallen asleep. As the space felt familiar, a single word quickly flashed through Yeon-woo’s mind. Lucid dreaming.

‘Was lucid dreaming originally this easy to dream…?’

He was having a dream that some people don’t experience in their entire lives for the second time. The first one was definitely a dream where he touched a Rottweiler puppy. By coincidence or not, his body had also shrunk like that time. No matter how much of a dream it was, having the same subject appear twice in the form of lucid dreaming was a bit strange.

By the way, where is this place? As soon as he recognized it as lucid dreaming, the background began to change. What appeared was a space that looked like a park. Whether it was because it was from a child’s perspective or it was actually wide, the scale of the park looked quite large.

Yeon-woo took bold steps forward, slowly moving his head from side to side. It wasn’t an act to look around and see what was around him. It was as if he was looking for someone.

‘My body is moving on its own again.’

Yeon-woo examined the movements that didn’t contain any of his will. What on earth was he looking for? His steps began to gain speed.

“Hyung… Hyung?”

As soon as he heard the word ‘hyung’, Yeon-woo let out a sigh. He had vaguely sensed it, but it seemed to be the same subject as the dream he had last time.

‘I couldn’t see his face back then….’

Yeon-woo recalled the dream with the Rottweiler again. Perhaps because it was a dream, the face of the person called ‘hyung’ was blurry as if pixelated. Maybe it would be a little different this time. A faint curiosity aroused Yeon-woo’s interest.

“Hyung…!”

It seemed the child had lost his older brother. Just as the child’s voice calling for his brother was filled with sorrow, a familiar male voice was heard from behind.

“I can’t take my eyes off you.”

The child’s body spun around. The face of the person he looked up to check was still not visible. However, his voice remained unchanged, so Yeon-woo could be certain that the man in front of him was the same man from the Rottweiler dream.

“Didn’t I tell you not to wander alone? The chauffeur must have been terrified thinking he lost you.”

The man playfully laughed and poked the child’s nose with his index finger. Yeon-woo tilted his head at the man’s words.

‘Chauffeur?’

Is he a child from a well-off family? He couldn’t be sure with a short conversation. Yeon-woo, who had been seriously pondering, suddenly burst into laughter. Although lucid dreaming was fascinating, it was just a dream after all. What does it matter if the child is from a well-off family or not? He decided not to think too deeply about it.

“…Hey, come here.”

The moment the man opened his arms to the child, a strong tinnitus was heard. He wanted to grab his ears right away, but his body wouldn’t move as he wished, so he had to feel the tinnitus in its entirety. What on earth was it? Yeon-woo could only relax his furrowed brows after the noise disappeared.

‘I think he called a name just now.’

It was clear that as soon as the man called the child’s name, the tinnitus was heard as if it had been precisely timed. For a dream, the sensation was so vivid that goosebumps automatically rose all over his body. Even now, his ears were still numb, causing a headache.

Yeon-woo watched the child approach and embrace the man. It was funny how the lucid dream was unnecessarily vivid.

“Hyung, where’s Mung-mung?”

“At the hospital.”

“Is it very sick?”

“It didn’t go because it was sick, but to get a shot. …The shot you cried about last time. Mung-mung went to get it without crying and in a well-behaved manner.”

“What? No! I didn’t cry!”

While the two characters were having a lively conversation, Yeon-woo struggled alone in agony. It was because the man had called the child’s name again. He couldn’t bear the pain in his forehead from the piercing sound in his ears. Yeon-woo, who groaned in pain, sharply glared at the man whose face was not visible. He would rather wake up from the dream than hear the tinnitus again.

‘But how do I wake up…?’

Although he desperately wanted to leave, it seemed impossible to escape unless someone woke him up or he naturally woke up. Yeon-woo, who let out a deep sigh, wished to quickly escape from the dream.

“It would be good to take a picture over there. Right?”

“Uh-huh, I like it.”

They seemed to be chattering among themselves for a while, and then the man walked with the child towards the place where flowers were blooming abundantly. Suddenly mentioning a picture, it was an absurd development to the point of being dumbfounded. The two people were really going to take a picture, staring at one spot and smiling.

‘And who is that person….’

Finally, another character appeared in the lucid dream. It was when Yeon-woo’s gaze turned towards the person holding the camera. The park began to collapse and the characters in front of him gradually blurred.

It seems I’m about to wake up from the dream. Yeon-woo closed his eyes when his surroundings had completely melted away.

***

As soon as he opened his eyes, a groan automatically escaped due to the terrible muscle pain that rushed in. It was also frustrating that the sensation he felt the moment he woke up from the dream was extreme pain.

However, the grumbling about the pain didn’t last long. Because there was an emotion that surged the moment he realized it was reality, not a dream.

‘I must be crazy, really.’

If there was a way to meet his past self, he would have punched himself hard. How could he drink and do such a thing with Ki-won? It would have been better if he didn’t remember at all, but the intermittently rising scenes tormented Yeon-woo.

He habitually tried to pull the blanket, but it ended in an attempt due to the overall muscle pain starting from his legs, buttocks, and back.

‘Where is hyung…?’

Yeon-woo, who quietly got up, hurriedly looked around. He didn’t know if Ki-won was at home or not, but at least it was certain that he wasn’t in the room. Yeon-woo, who was relieved, was about to remove the blanket covering his body.

‘I’m really going crazy… What is this again?’

Ki-won’s clothes were messily scattered on the bed. Yeon-woo swept back his hair as if pulling it out due to the belatedly rising memories. Come to think of it, it seemed that when heat cycle symptoms appeared, he had taken out all of Ki-won’s clothes and moved them to the bed. Seeing that the sheets had been changed, it seemed that Ki-won had cleaned the bedding, but he couldn’t figure out why the clothes were left as they were.

‘Did I throw a tantrum telling him not to clean up…?’

Please, I hope that’s not the case. Question marks that arose due to inaccurate memories floated around in his head. Yeon-woo groaned with a sense of self-despair. There was no way Ki-won would have left the clothes without a reason. He must have told him not to clean up. Even if no one told him the answer, he could figure out this much.

Yeon-woo, who let out a deep sigh as if the ground would collapse, stared beyond the door. It was because he couldn’t muster the courage to walk out on his own feet.

Translation Notes: 

1 More free chap today, Happy Father’s Day to all fathers!